stressted .

aite so i been stressed ALOT lately&& idky.
its jus a whole bunch of stuff piled up making one big thing
but i like to write..writing helps me express myself.its like my outlet to vent&it makes me feel better..
so thats why this blog is turning more into my life instead of celebrities..cuz i been usin it as my outlet.
i been cryin or on the verge of cryin for tha past two weeks.
cuz of school.my dad.missin my mom(&brother).work.not bein in NC.&missin my friends back home.
but today -- i been wondering whether..my boyfriend is GAY!
hmm...idk.he jus be sayin some stuff that have me wondering..like he went wit me shoppin today&he would say.."oh i'd rock that" talkin bout some girl clothes.
then he asked could he hold my purse then he said he wanted to wear a wig.then he said he tried on heels...
im like...hmmm...
&he's not homophobic.not sayin that he should be but he jus too comfortable wit it for me.&&he talks too low&soft.
idk i'm probably thinkin too much into it like i do about everythin but you might jus need to be here to see what i mean.

but i think ive JUST figured out what i wanna go to school for.&&i mean JUST figured it out.like as i was jus typing.I think i wanna go to school for somethin in design.so ima go to school for liberal arts? to do like my original plan of fashion merchandisin or interior design or somethin..idk yet...

another thing thats REALLY bothering me is not havin any friends.like today &tomorrow im off work&have NOTHIN to do :( i have nobody to do anythin with ugh:(