ill let you kno

ok im bout to delete these page&&start all over ...
cuz this is really buggin me now
ill let you kno tha new URL..
please follow that one :)

im back!

I'm BAAAAAAAACK!!!
ok i been gone for a minute..well more like a month or two..
I'm sorry,i do apologize..its jus that,my laptop charger cord broke so i havent had my computer jus my ipod touch&&thats hard to blog on.
&&i kinda wasnt feeling like bloggin but im back,im feeling it
soooo much has gone on in this month..crazy stuff that idk if i should even put out there..
i dont need yall judging me.but i been having fun :)

ima change my whole blog layout..its real ugly but you're gonna have to give me some time.i gotta new job position so i work a little more now..
&&im not gonna do anything tonight cuz i jus got in tha house from my aunts 50th bday party on a cruise :) &&my feet are KILLIN me! i was in some 4 inch heels :D yesss gettin it!lol

Well..im bout to go to sleep.gotta be to work at 8am.
night loves

f.a.s.h.i.o.n is my p.a.s.s.i.o.n

this is how i feel about fashion too!!

&&ive finally made up my mind what im goin to school for...ima go back to my first choice of fashion merchandising.I changed my mind sooo many times..from Interior Design,Graphic Design,Pharmasist,etc. but i think i wanna do fashion merchandising and psychology :)

&&i jus filled out my app for VCU so im pretty excited..its time i do somethin wit my life!

my [tattoo]!!

My tattoo!! :) :)

[did it hurt?]...yes,it hurt..not HORRIBLY bad but it hurt..

idk how to explain it.you'll jus have to get one.

[what it symbolises]...hmm..idk how to explain it without soundin conceited or something so im not even gonna try.

I like my tattoo but bcuz of tha way i think,i got alot of thoughts goin threw my head.yea bad ones.

but i jus gotta be like, its nothin i can do about it now.

but i do love it.

:)

:( shrugs sholders ):

Sooo..my birthday was tha 25th and tha whole week before that ive been sick [im still alittle sick now] and my "so called boyfriend" didnt call me in 3 days.tha 4th day was my birthday.can you believe tha negro did not call me?!?! AT ALL!! he sent me a "happy bday" text..&&thats it! I waited all day for a phone call or somethin&&i got nothin.well..i aint really wait.i went on about my business and had a nice day and hung out wit some dudes :) then at 10 at night i decided to text him outta curiousity &&was like "so all i get is a happy bday text?" and he say somethin about he sorry and we gonna do somethin Friday..thats about it.

.im so done.

how can you have a girlfriend and not take her out&&not even CALL!!?!

im sayin,really.I took him to tha Cheesecake Factory&&got NOTHIN for my bday..

we got in a LITTLE argument one night and that was tha last time i talked to him.

he do little s.t.u.p.i.d stuff like that that jus builds up and i get pissed off.

• like....he doesnt call me at night jus to chit chat or say good night
• ...he never takes me out cuz he always claims to be broke.idk where his money go to
• ...he's TOO quiet and soft
• ...he doesnt man up to me when i complain about anythin or say somethin out tha way to him.he jus get quiet and say he sorry and he gonna fix things
• ...he's not aggressive
• ...he DIDNT CALL ME FOR MY BIRTHDAY OR TAKE ME ANYWHERE OR BUY ME ANYTHING!

im jus done..ugh.

im not even upset tho..i've been so hurt in my past that i dont even get hurt anymore.i never put my feelings too deep into anythin anymore so i wont get my feelings hurt.we only dated 2 months anyways =/

oh well..im over this

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME

to me yesterday!!!

I just turned 20!! yay!

sneeeeeezzzze!

guys im sick..so thats why im slackin on tha b.l.o.g. sorry guys..i jus dont have anything to talk about really cuz my head is stuffed but i do gotta tell yall how my EX [yea.tha one from WAY back i talked about] messaged me on fb...smh..

but until then...buh-bye.

gone to take a niquil

?

Cause a girl like me
is jus a little different than all tha rest
&&a girl like me
never gonna settle for second best
could it be a boy like you
that would give me anything if I asked you to
take all my dreams and then make em true
show me all tha reasons you oughta be..
wit a girl like me

zzzz

Omg i am SOOOO tired!!Yesterday i worked 8 hours then went out last night with my cousins.we went to Ruby Tuesdays then bowling.I had alot of fun!I dont go out much now that I moved here to VA but ALL my cousins live here so i guess i do have SOMEBODY.then!!today i woke up 30 minutes before im suppose to be at work then worked 9 hours.omg my eyes feel like they bout to fall on tha ground!I coulda been asleep a long time ago but im addicted to this dumb computer.I spend hours on here doin....nothin.when im suppose to be doin something.ugh.im bout to go to sleep..really.

oh but i was lookin up prices for me and my best friend to go to *Las Vegas* next year!!! I can not WAIT!! I spend Christmas '08 in Las Vegas&&i LOVE it there.omg!I stayed for 10 days wit my EX best friend&&she was too worried about hookin up wit random dudes&&i wanted to go see places and do things but her family--stop.thats a story for another day.We did some fun stuff tho..if you never been up NEED to go.its something you've never seen.Its jus weird tho cuz like..they dont have real grass or trees and they dont have chick-fil-a's over there but they do have 7-11's on every corner jus like here.lol.but thats my favorite place in tha states right now!&&next year ima be 21 so u kno im wildin out!Parties::even tho im not a party person ima go cuz its Vegas! Drinkin::i dont drink either but..you kno. Im not gambling cuz i aint about losing money.na.im too cheap for that! haha but i cant wait.im so stoked! (thats my new word for tha moment.lol)

ok i would love to chit chat more but im sleepy.goin to bed.

nighty night.

-_- ...zzz

truthfully ;)

there's this thing where u can ask me ANY question you want.about ANYTHING!!&&you're anonymous &&i will honestly answer it..so go ahead and ask away.whatever you wanted to kno about me :)
ooh! there's a box on tha right hand side where u can drop your question too

ill tell the whole truth nothin but tha truth so help me God! so ask me!! :) 100% http://formspring.me/chocoleah

-hershey xoxo ;)

ohhh lala

looky!! i got my nails done today! cute huh?? i think so.thanks! :)

zzzz...

OH EM GEE!!!

I jus realized my last post was my 200th post!!!

i never thought i'd blog this much! but i love bloggin now!

i feel like bloggin tonight but i dont have anything to blog about really =/

im tired..i been workin 8 hour shifts [which u might not say is alot.thats normal..but Leah doesnt normally work 8 hr shifts.i do like 5,6,maybe 7 hours] so im jus a little tired.&&i was suppose to go out tonight but i basically got stood up so im jus in tha house.chillin.bout to fall asleep at 9:00. lol

sooo...therefor i have nothin to say..

buh-bye*

Oh no..WAIT!! i do have something to say!!

My boyfriends birthday is tomorrow...but i have barely talked to him in 2 days cuz he lied to me tha other day so im jus a liddle upset wit him &im not happy in this r.ship 100%, like i think i should be...[that has somethin to do with my other post from yesterday ;) *wink*]
so idk if i wanna take him out tomorrow.i mean, i do..its his 21st birthday&im his girl but im so aggravated wit him idk if he deserves it.i'll probably still take him.i planned on taking him to tha cheesecake factory
[yes i kno,ima good girlfriend.cant help it!lol]
but bcuz of how im feeling right now...he might get Red Lobsters.lol.

Live my life or worry about what i might regret...

ugh!! so i need to get this off my chest

&&this has become my new way to do it..

blog it out!

but since this is tha World Wide Web && anybody can read it..ima have to be discrete.

i had tha chance to do something i said i would NEVER do && something i never THOUGHT i'd do but..i had that chance and i was gonna do it cuz i was like..i need to live my life.do what i wanna do.have fun!but..he took me home "/ [<--- u like my new smiley?? its a slanty face.lol]

ugh..i wish i could jus say what happen but i cant cuz i cant take tha chance of you-kno-who reading this.well u probably dont kno who you kno who is but...! lol

message me and i would love to tell u my scenario somewhere else.lmao!

weird??

I think i have a crush on a grown man...&when i say grown man, i mean grown man. He is way above my age group but when i see him i jus start smiling.idk what it is about him..idk what it is about older men cuz this aint tha first..in 2nd grade i had a crush on my teacher...lol.but this one...he be smiling at me and winkin&&that jus throws me over tha top! lol&&hr knows i like him now cuz i told him.lol&&he says "thats a good thing" .lol.but i think its tha way he carry hisself.he act like he 20 something..which is not cool cuz dude you are NOT 20something.haha.but i personally think he look good for his age.&&he aint maried ;) lol.i gotta chance!! but idk.i dont think im attracted to him sexually.jus..i dont even know...jus attracted.am i weird??lol

stressted .

aite so i been stressed ALOT lately&& idky.
its jus a whole bunch of stuff piled up making one big thing
but i like to write..writing helps me express myself.its like my outlet to vent&it makes me feel better..
so thats why this blog is turning more into my life instead of celebrities..cuz i been usin it as my outlet.
i been cryin or on the verge of cryin for tha past two weeks.
cuz of school.my dad.missin my mom(&brother).work.not bein in NC.&missin my friends back home.
but today -- i been wondering whether..my boyfriend is GAY!
hmm...idk.he jus be sayin some stuff that have me wondering..like he went wit me shoppin today&he would say.."oh i'd rock that" talkin bout some girl clothes.
then he asked could he hold my purse then he said he wanted to wear a wig.then he said he tried on heels...
im like...hmmm...
&he's not homophobic.not sayin that he should be but he jus too comfortable wit it for me.&&he talks too low&soft.
idk i'm probably thinkin too much into it like i do about everythin but you might jus need to be here to see what i mean.

but i think ive JUST figured out what i wanna go to school for.&&i mean JUST figured it out.like as i was jus typing.I think i wanna go to school for somethin in design.so ima go to school for liberal arts? to do like my original plan of fashion merchandisin or interior design or somethin..idk yet...

another thing thats REALLY bothering me is not havin any friends.like today &tomorrow im off work&have NOTHIN to do :( i have nobody to do anythin with ugh:(

basically a boyfriendless christmas

I'm like so aggravated right now..im bout to be single .
ok so last night..no rewind-lets go farther back .
so like 2 weeks ago i told my boyfriend that i wanted to go see tha christmas lights..he aint say nothin about it so i was like ok whatever, he dont wanna take me..i still wanna go so ima go.so my brother is visitin me and i asked him to go wit me and he said he would so i told my bf i was goin wit my brother then he wanna come ask me if he could take me so im like sure
sooo..i got off work at 6 and told him i was off&im like are we goin to see tha lights&he like yea around 8pm.&&im like..why so late?but i let it go.im like if he wanna go at 8,cool.but idk what time they stop so then 8 comes........and goes.
i dont hear nothin from him so i txt him around 8:45&i'm like aite im bout to go wash my hair..he txts me back 5 minutes to 9 &is like "oh,my dad said they stop at 9."
&&im like..oh so you couldnt tell me that around 8 o clock instead of having me wait around for you?!&u not say nothin?? so in my book, thats standing somebody up..so im pissed
then i txtd him&im like "so i'm not waitin for u for breakfast dinner then?"
&he keep askin me if my brother coming.&im like why do u ask me that? do u want him to come ?? &we end up droppin tha convo.
soo morning comes.he txt me at like 8 talkin bout "happy christmas" ....??who says that?retards!
i send no reply..then he txts like a hour later askin me what im doin...no reply.so he calls.no answer.then like 30 minutes later i txt him tellin him im eatin.he like "oh u couldnt wait huh?".
i slightly go off! im like "its 10:30!what u want me to wait till lunchtime?and jus wait around for you to txt me &if u never txtd me i wouldnt been sittin around hungry..no.ima jus do me now" &he like aite do u.i say aite.i will!!
ugh.he makes me so sick wit the little things he do!!!!

Lesson Of Tha Day!

lesson of tha day:

in a new relationship, dont buy a christmas gift until tha week OF!!
cuz that negro might f up and you gotta return a gift.
or if u did like me..you got somethin engraved &&you CANT return
it.
ugh
learned my lesson!
but i think ima still give it to him.we aint broke up...yet.

twitter!

Oh yeah!!

I forgot to give you my twitter name:

thathersheygirl

follow me now!

tha name is self explanatory :)

WELCOME BACK ME!

Im back!!!

&&I have soo much to say!

Ok. sooo.. I jus got back from my vaction to Charlotte,NC..my hometown&&i LOVED it!! I aint do much of nothin but go see some old friends and I stayed wit my aunt&uncle.

OMG!!

I know i had to have spent like 200$ on gas cuz i went to tha gas station like everyday.I stayed for 4 days and my aunt lives a hour away from charlotte&i took that drive and back everyday!But i went shoppin and got a Coach purse for $193&&its REAL! I got it from tha Coach outlet store. 100% real.it was originally $449.99 but it was half off&&they gave you a 20% off coupon at tha door! you shoulda seen my face in that store :D i was in heaven!!

I went and saw my old crush!ahh! he still looked SOOOO good.omg!

if only..if only!! lol

&&i went and stayed wit my mom for about 3 days too&she stays a hour and a half away from me so...MORE GAS!!

But overall i had a good time!Then we i got back here i was like :( :( ugh!I dont wanna live here!I definately wanted to stay in NC and never return!! I mean I like it here in VA. I think there's probably more to do here but i jus have like NO friends so i dont do anythin but in NC i have friends and nothin to do!! But i think its better to have friends and nothin to do..cuz u can aways find somethin to do wit friends :) dont cha think?

And THEN!the whole days i was gone my boyfriend BARELY txtd or called me..i was like dang.really tho??

its like that?!

im gone and i cant getta hey how you doin?what u doin?i miss you??

I mean he did txt me everyday but we aint txt about nothin and it mighta lasted 20 minutes then thats it! he coulda called!ugh! so i was a little peeved about that!

&&i miss my moms..alot :(

Sooo...now i'm back in VA...bored out my mind.i hate goin out in tha cold so i dont really go out much.all i do is work =/ and im off mon and tues sooo ill probably be stuck here in tha house and I get depressed when i stay in tha house.Oh! i did break down and cry in front of Jourdan (my boyfriend) jus about how i was tired of sittin in this house and being bored in VA and missing my mom and he was real caring and held me :) and i told him how i wanted him to be more aggressive.

Oh thats a new subject!

so yeah! I jus want him to be more aggressive..tell me what we gonna do,where we gonna go..tell me NO! if he dont wanna do something.

but he jus does everything i say

WHICH I LOVE!

but i want him to be like "look!we goin to ---.be ready by---.im coming to get you!"

but instead he'll be like "well..if you wanna do that..its up to you"

ugh!jus have some control!

wear tha pants dude!!!lol

but anywho..off that..on to tha next...subject.

i kno yall kno what happen to Brittany Murphy so im not bout to cover that..

&&do you follow me??

im new to this twitter thing..im tryin to learn so follow me and teach me how ;)

ok.tired of reading this..me talkin bout nothin??

ok im gone! cuz my words on E now.

peace.love.and chicken grease!

vacation

ok so im bout to go on vacation! so i probably wont be on here like that to update..i dont update that much now cuz i dont have alot of followers but you kno what? i should still post for my few followers shouldnt i??
but yall dont be leaving no comments!! shoot!
but anywho...
i really wanted to get up here to talk about my boyfriend.lol
im SOOO in like wit him..we're to tha point where we say we love each other but its more like...we got love for each other not totally IN love.but i think it's gonna happen.we bout to fall in love.
he is sooo good to me.he gets me whatever i want and he jus wants to make me happy :)
&&we jus have soo much fun together..ima miss him so much while i'm gone =/