stressted .

aite so i been stressed ALOT lately&& idky.
its jus a whole bunch of stuff piled up making one big thing
but i like to write..writing helps me express myself.its like my outlet to vent&it makes me feel better..
so thats why this blog is turning more into my life instead of celebrities..cuz i been usin it as my outlet.
i been cryin or on the verge of cryin for tha past two weeks.
cuz of school.my dad.missin my mom(&brother).work.not bein in NC.&missin my friends back home.
but today -- i been wondering whether..my boyfriend is GAY!
hmm...idk.he jus be sayin some stuff that have me wondering..like he went wit me shoppin today&he would say.."oh i'd rock that" talkin bout some girl clothes.
then he asked could he hold my purse then he said he wanted to wear a wig.then he said he tried on heels...
im like...hmmm...
&he's not homophobic.not sayin that he should be but he jus too comfortable wit it for me.&&he talks too low&soft.
idk i'm probably thinkin too much into it like i do about everythin but you might jus need to be here to see what i mean.

but i think ive JUST figured out what i wanna go to school for.&&i mean JUST figured it out.like as i was jus typing.I think i wanna go to school for somethin in design.so ima go to school for liberal arts? to do like my original plan of fashion merchandisin or interior design or somethin..idk yet...

another thing thats REALLY bothering me is not havin any friends.like today &tomorrow im off work&have NOTHIN to do :( i have nobody to do anythin with ugh:(

Lesson of the Day

(ok so this is the lesson i learned yesterday but ima still use it as my lesson of TOday ! )

if you want somebody to do somethin you have to tell them.ppl are not mind readers.especailly in relationships.dont be tryna get all mad at someone because of something they didnt or did do that you didnt like but they aint kno you aint like it.You cant assume ppl know what you like.

Relatonships=sacrifice&&compromise.

..Also-they're are WAY too many people in tha world for you to be stressing over one person.If they not treatin you how to should be treated or THINK you should be treated..MOVE ON! you dont have to put up with anythin thats not benefitin your life...

Spoken Word of tha day

How bout them Panthers??

yeaaaa...how you like that?? Panthers beat the Giants 41-9 didnt they??I think so!!

hahaha

Baby Keesh

i did not kno she was pregnant!

awwww

merry christmas

merry christmas ;)

basically a boyfriendless christmas

I'm like so aggravated right now..im bout to be single .
ok so last night..no rewind-lets go farther back .
so like 2 weeks ago i told my boyfriend that i wanted to go see tha christmas lights..he aint say nothin about it so i was like ok whatever, he dont wanna take me..i still wanna go so ima go.so my brother is visitin me and i asked him to go wit me and he said he would so i told my bf i was goin wit my brother then he wanna come ask me if he could take me so im like sure
sooo..i got off work at 6 and told him i was off&im like are we goin to see tha lights&he like yea around 8pm.&&im like..why so late?but i let it go.im like if he wanna go at 8,cool.but idk what time they stop so then 8 comes........and goes.
i dont hear nothin from him so i txt him around 8:45&i'm like aite im bout to go wash my hair..he txts me back 5 minutes to 9 &is like "oh,my dad said they stop at 9."
&&im like..oh so you couldnt tell me that around 8 o clock instead of having me wait around for you?!&u not say nothin?? so in my book, thats standing somebody up..so im pissed
then i txtd him&im like "so i'm not waitin for u for breakfast dinner then?"
&he keep askin me if my brother coming.&im like why do u ask me that? do u want him to come ?? &we end up droppin tha convo.
soo morning comes.he txt me at like 8 talkin bout "happy christmas" ....??who says that?retards!
i send no reply..then he txts like a hour later askin me what im doin...no reply.so he calls.no answer.then like 30 minutes later i txt him tellin him im eatin.he like "oh u couldnt wait huh?".
i slightly go off! im like "its 10:30!what u want me to wait till lunchtime?and jus wait around for you to txt me &if u never txtd me i wouldnt been sittin around hungry..no.ima jus do me now" &he like aite do u.i say aite.i will!!
ugh.he makes me so sick wit the little things he do!!!!

ewwah

ugh.wth?

Rihanna:Hard ft.Young Jeezy

my favorite song curently :)

YAY!!

T.I. is outta jail!! YAY! But he's goin to a halfway house in atl.

but thats cool.at least he out ;)